Makeup Maniac

Hell yeah, it refers to me. It is most probably because I am ugly, so, I need makeup to make me look great. No kidding. As an ordinary girl, I love to look beautiful. It is not because I want to attract attention, but it is just for my satisfaction. Makeup can transform someone face to a whole different face. No doubt. Just look at celebrities without makeup. No offences, but they look awful without it. Yet some, still look pretty enough without makeup - examples: Jessica Simpsons. Heidi Klum and Miley Cyrus.

Get the vivid? :)

I am still learning how to use makeup as probably as I can. Yet, I am off the budget to go to take any makeup classes or tutorials. Apart from that, I am too shy. (^.^) Yes, I have low naraccism. I need something to upgrade it - makeup, for sure. I only take note from pictures and of course, from Youtube.com. Hell, there are lots of makeup tutorials!!! I mostly view artists' makeup tutorial, such as Leona Lewis, Avril Lavigne and so on. Just now, I've learned how to apply very daring red lipstick. Oh My God, I am falling in love with RED! Can't deny about that. The tutor? She is great. Even her hair is quite weird, she looks pretty in her way. You go girl! Lots of love for you! Seek for THE PERFECT RED LIPS TUTORIAL by xsparkage. :) You will never regret. Ouh Ange, I am so gonna beat your sexy lips! :P

Great, is it?

I always try to apply smokey eyes. Yet, I still can't figure how to apply it. DUH. So, I try to seek for Avril Lavigne's eye makeup tutorial. And guess what? It is sooooo easy like A B C. Hahaha. I am so going to try it after this. Yeah, after this. :P I am busy for this week as I have my mid-year exam. Break a leg! XD To Avril Lavigne, I adore your eyes makeup and I am so gonna have eyes just like you. But...of course, I don't have any blue-coloured eyes. Or is it green? -.- I have no ideas. =P

Very black kohl eyes. :)

This feeling is taking its tool on me! Awww... I am going WOOT WOOT! XD

It is not an option

Growing up isn't my thing.

I dislike being adult, it is ANNOYING.

But...

Live in the world for

more than 19 years?

SYUKUR ALHAMDULILLAH

I am grateful to HIM.

:)

My Life As A Juggernaut

Love is being stupid.
Stupid is us.
Abdul Wahab + Nursyazwanie
20.02.10-now
(a month already)
Heee... :)

(p/s: I know that we aren't gonna be together forever but still, I am glad to have you. )

Way Back To Love

I shut my heart when it comes to LOVE after he dumped me in the loneliness that no one can live on. I try not to cry in front of everyone but my heart is like an ice-cream. It melts when the flame is burning its heat. I lock myself inside the world I create all by myself, just to make myself secure and safe. No love, Ill be safe. I won't be hurt. I won't cry. I won't feel betray. I won't feel anything but myself. Yet, this few days I feel something that squeezes me like I'm a sardine tin. I digged the problem, try to understand it. And yes, here I with my solution. I miss all the excitement when I was falling in love. I miss all the love in the air that take my breathe away. Love is an irresistible desire to be irresistibly desired. Jeez, I guess the prediction is right about me. I'm the Godness of Love. I just cannot live without love. Yeah, I have lots to love - God, my lovable parents, my insane...still my siblings, friends, teachers and more. Yet, I'm still a human being who have the unsatisfied need. I'm young, I know, I realize. Love is a temporary madness. Some said that love is for stupid. But life without love??? It is terribly silly knocking your head upon the door of the hell. Love is like a booger, you keep on picking it and after that, you are wondering what else to do with it. My friends keep on asking me,"What will happens if you are married as you have instance now... you don't have any long relation with any boys." Maybe they do not know. I do really want to have a long relation. I do really want to. But when I keep on wishing on the star, I will always get the dung. Boys do not understand me as I, myself, also do not understand myself. Love is indeed deadful yet beautiful. Love is a simple word. But maintaining a love affair is not easy. Its an examination where you face different types of hurdles. You must possess that strength in mind which would lead you to a successful relationship. There are so many ups and downs come in love but you have to overcome them. Any wrong step can be the reason of lifelong pain. When you are in love, you meet some happy moments too. Happiness, sorrow, anger, everything helps to complete a relationship. Many renowned authors have written lots of popular love quotes. Once you will read them, you would realize how much passion and feeling are included there. Go through some of the wonderful love quotations and enrich your life with color, health and satisfaction. My ex-es have their own love chapter with their own new girls. I wish the best for them, of course, I'm quite sad. But... our love story end. So, let's fullstop on the sorrow section. Now, I like someone, somebody, a human of course but he acts like an alien. I know he likes me, but I do not know how to reply it. Should I? Shouldn't I? I keep on tangle on my stupid silly Magic 8-Ball.

1.Should I tell him the truth???
Yes, definitely.

2. Should I couple with him???
Concentrate and ask again. :S

Again, I ask again with more concentration.

Should I couple with him???
Yes.

3. Will I be happy with him???
No.
(Then why should I couple with him?????)

4. Will I have long term relation with him???
Yes.

The last question...

5. Do I look stupid?
No...
Ghee... thanks! :D

They are just for fun. Not more than that.

“No one knows better than a sister how we grew up, and who our friends, teachers and favorite toys were. No one knows better than she...”


Here I begin once again. I won't write about neither love, friendship, studies nor life. Today, I want to write about my little sister. She doesn't small though. I'm 2 years older than her. She makes my life more meaningful and no one ever make me feel like this. I can say that she is my life. A day without her is like a day without a sleep. Hahaha XD Can you imagine your life without sleeping??? You will be moody, unenergetic, tired and anxious. We are bonded... You can say that we are siamese. Hahaha... We can jokes and plays everywhere, including toilets! And we will laugh even though for a very small tiny thing. We live our life basicly from insanity, not vanity. And I proud to have her. Hope she will have the same feeling too. I LOVE YOU... and it NEVER EVER change.

Your cute sister,
Wanie
:P

Holidays????

Okay. I don't mean to be rude but my holidays are sucks. I'm bored and I don't know what else to do. It feels like I'm useless and retarded as I can't do anything else except sitting at home and online all the day long. I feel more fun when I'm on school. I can meet my friends, that's for sure. My friends? Hurm... they are busy... busy with working. Okay. Maybe you are wondering why don't I work. Well, I guess my parents won't let me as they afraid that I'll love to work and don't want to continue my studies. Okay... I get what they are trying to do. Ouh yeah, I have a huge assignment actually for this holiday! And it boosts me up! It is a Pengajian Am's assignment. Well, my group (Samantha, C'ma, Jee and me) or also known as Brain Workers is going to do WILD ANIMALS! Heee... it is interesting, right?! Yet, our group's name quite scares me as teacher said that our project should be as great as our group's name. Perghhh... -.- I'm going to die. But not yet! I have to struggle to end of the point! Haa.. self-motivate! What else huh??? Ouh yeah, my love story isn't that fruity for these few days. Hurm... I'm way too tired to talk about it. Maybe next time I will. And hell yeah, I have financial crisis! Perghhh.... shit! I'll wait for my eldest sister, Kak Ani, to come to Sandakan. I want her to spend my lil sis, Jana and me to new Secret Recipe. I just can't wait lorh! Hahaha... My hair is growing faster. Thank GOD! I love long hair but I won't do extensions. It is way too expensive and fake. -.- Sorry. I love NATURAL one. :) Well, I decided to perm my hair after STPM. Well, my school won't let any fashionable hairstyles. ''-.- That is school policy. And I, as a prefect, have to obey! Aduhai.. hehehe... Hooo... I guess that's all for now. I'll continue later. ;) Bye peeps!

Broken Heart Girl... (

My heart is broken.
I, myself, don't know what my heart want to say...
And sometimes it screams until it bleeds deep inside...
Yet, I'm too jackass because I still can figure out the puzzle...
Should I just shut my mouth up?
Or should I tell him what I feel?
Ouh... it is quite impossible!
I can't take it!
I need to do something!
I want to forget him... yeah, forget him is the best solution!
But.... how? :(
How?
Oh my Lord, please show me some courages...
So that I'm strong enough to forget him...
Yeah, I will! I will!
Wish me luck, I have a mission now.
FORGET HIM!
Burbye, love!

Melancholy

;(

DON'T BE A SOBER...
THIS LIFE IS TOO SHORT...
SO, ENJOY IT.

:(

DON'T BE SAD...
THIS LIFE IS NOT WAITING FOR US...
SO, CHASE IT.

:|

PUT A SMILE ON YOUR FACE...
A SMILE CAN CHANGE THE WHOLE WORLD...
SO, JUST SMILE!

:)

GOOD GIRL/BOY...
I LOVE YOU...
STOP PLAYING THE MELANCHOLY MELODY..
THERE ARE STILL MANY CHOICES TO CHOOSE...
PICK ONE, MAYBE YOU'LL BE HAPPY.

:D

Secret Admirer???

My big topic ever!
Who is he?
I already know..
The only thing I don't know is...
Should I believe the story? Or the rumour???
But everyone knows about it...
Aww... what should I do???
I'm clueless, speechless...
Haiyak...
Psstt.. let it be my secret..
When the time is right, everything gonna be reveals!

Form 6 Life

Okay! It is quite a long time I don't post any blogs , right? Here I begin once again. I'm VERY busy with my form 6 life. DUH... when I said that I'm sitting for form 6, everyone will have the same reactions.. Wow! hehehe... well, not everyone dares to take form 6 because you will be bonded with the school rules(have to wear school uniform, pony tail, white shoes, text books etc). It is true that I take only 4 subjects.. but what the hell! The homeworks and projects are GIGANTIC! huhuhu... they are higher than mountains, deeper than oceans and wider than universes! Whatever la... this is what I wish and I want. So I have to work hard to grant all my wishes! Haiyak... I don't want to be a useless person... I have to catch up with my friends... When it is a project group... there are 6 members... and guess what? I do all the works and I don't even say anything about it. And when my teacher said that there is only a person works hard on the project... all my friends knew that it is me. I cried! UWEK! UWEK! UWEK! Sometimes I feel like I want to give up all my efforts to my group. It is better for me to work on my project all by me, myself and I. And my group's member asked for my forgiveness. And I'm person who can forgive easily but can't forget about it for the rest of my life... I give them the third chances!

THE SUMMARY IS... I'M TIRED BA!!!

Sudahlah Hodoh, Bodoh Lagi! Penipu!

Hye guys. It was quite a long time I don't update my blog. Quite busy with the reality! :-D So, read and respons! ;-D

Siapakah orang yang MALANG sangat dapat gelaran "Hodoh,Bodoh" dari aku??? Kesian sangat.... Tapi apalah sangat mau dikasihankan orang macam dia tue??? Aku ndak akan marah sangat dengan dia kalau dia ndak main-mainkan perasaan aku. For specific??? Orang tu??? Berjantina lelaki! So 'in' to Korean and Japanese... Pewasan gilak eh??? And for sure... he is my EX!


Aku ndak akan marah kalau dia ndak tipu aku banyak kali! Tau knapa? Punya cepat aku terima dia jadi bf aku... and secepat tu juga kami break! Hahaha... and you know what??? I am glad! Buat apa aku mau dengan lelaki macam dia tu??? Aku tau ar dia sayang sangat dengan TIRAMISU dia tu... tapi janganlah mainkan perasan aku, ngek! Cakap masih sayang aku la... Cakap dia cari aku la.. Kalau kamu mau tau, selama ni aku yang SMS dia dulu! Bodoh en??? Syukur alhamdulillah... aku ndak sayang dia lagi.. Macam p*lat jak dia macam tue! Siot~~~

Aku ndak sayang dia lagi... bukan pasal dia hodoh... tapi pasal dia bodoh tipu aku! Dia fikir aku nie bodoh sangat macam dia mau pecaya cakap-cakap bodoh-bodoh-bodoh-bodoh yang terlampau itu??? Sebab kebodohan yang terlampau itu, aku panggil la dia hodoh! Hahahaha.. aku tau aku pun hodoh... tapi aku tiada la permainkan perasan dia kan??? Betul...betul... ertinya aku lagi 'lawa' sikit... Weeee~~~ Bahagia!

Dia pergilah dengan perempuan tu yang main-mainkan dia. Kadang-kadang, aku mau kasi pecah jak kepalanya tu tau! Ndak sedar akan HAKIKATnya! Bodos.... owh, kepada perempuan tue... You deserve to be jealous of me! Gambar aku mereng, kau pun ikutlah mereng gak! Aku pakai bulu mata palsu, kau pun guna-guna jugak la! Aku pakai cermin mata hitam bingkai putih, kau pun sama gak la. Yang lelaki tue... yang si BODOH tue kan... Aku pakai cermin mata NERDIO tu, dia pun pakai. Duh... maybe accidentally...tapi, fuck off la! Hate copycats! Hahaha...

Apa lagi erk? Sebenarnya aku ndak sanggup gak mau cakap pasal dia nie... tapi sebab dia sudah sakitkan hati aku nie, rasakanlah hangat hangat kemarahan aku! Hahahaha...

BODOH! ANJING! SIAL! SUNDAL BOLONG! BABI! KHINZIR! H1N1! Pergi mampus boleh? Terima kasih....

Weeee~~~~~~

p/s: please don't start the war that you can't even fight ... BIG MAJOR LOSER

Moody~~~

OKAY... I'M FUCKING MOODY RIGHT NOW!!! FOR THE FIRST TIME, I DELETED MORE THAN APPROVED MY APPROVAL COMMENTS EVER! I'M NOT BEING MEAN BUT I'M TOO NICE TO REPLY ALL THE NONSENSE COMMENTS AND NOT IMPORTANT AT ALL... SUCH... "hye...tengah wat apa tue?" THAT'S ALL??? DUH.. I HAVE MAKE MY DECISION.... I DON'T WANT TO REPLY ANY KIND OF THOSE COMMENTS ANYMORE. SHIT EVERYWHERE!

HOW ABOUT HOMEWORKS??? I'M FREAKING TIRED!!!! I WANNA HAVE MY HOLIDAYS BUT WHEN I THOUGHT ABOUT IT AGAIN... FORGET ABOUT HAVING MY HOLIDAYS! I DON'T EVEN WANNA MISS ANY ONE OF SUBJECTS! SO... LET IT BE. I'M TIRED TO DEATH TO HELL!

MY FRIENDS ALL ASKED ME WHETHER I'M TIRED BECAUSE I LOOK SO FUCKING SLEEPY AND TIRED... MY EYEBAGS ARE BIGGER THAN GIANT AND I JUST CAN'T HIDE MY TIRING FACE! MY TEACHER...SHE SAID THAT.. "janganlah kamu stress buat nota cikgu... relax saja.. tengok jerawat sudah timbul-timbul". AND MY FRIEND WHO SIT NEXT TO ME... "ya wa... jerawat nampak!" I FEEL SO ASHAMED!!!!! HELP ME. I'M FUCKING TIRED! I NEED HELP YAW!!!

:-(

Ouh..ouh...ouh... hands up!!!

(okay... for real I look like pig here! My lil sis asked me to pose like this! Uwek.. I guess this is my WORST picture ever!!!)

Sorry guys... Long time no update my blog. Hehehehehe... Well, I'm very busy with my real life here! VERY BUSY!!!! I had to write Pengajian Am's notes for twice! I had to rewrite my Sejarah's notes! Ouh... my friends asked me this morning... "Kenapa dengan kau??? Macam sangat penat jak..." And then I asked them again... "Yakah?? Ketara sangatkah aku penat???" They nudged. Okay... for real, I'm so damn tired yaw!

By the way, I have imsomnia... I guess! Because these few days, I can't sleep well! Even though I force myself to close my eyes, my mind still think about everything! From my homeworks, my weight problems, studies, love, life, money, friends... Uhhu... I missed my old life... enjoy and joy! My life now? I'm quite devastated, tired, dissapointed, exhausted... huhu... everything ED ED ED! hahahaha... Well, this is what I wish and I have to give a fight on getting my goals! I wanna enter University!!!!

Actually, I wanna 4 flats on my STPM... Hopefully!!!! Yeah... it is only 4 subjects - Pengajian Am, Sejarah, Ekonomi and BM. Okay... Pengajian Am... I have to read latest news and issues... If not, I am doomed!!!! If you fail Pengajian Am on STPM, you can't even step into U! Hah... scary huh?! It has two papers... paper 1 and paper 2. It takes 5 hours for both papers! Hopefully I will not fall into sleep! Hahahaha... Sejarah? Okay.. I love Sejarah as my teacher is soooo sweet! Ehhe... okay... I guess I can score on Sejarah... yet, I have to read two books of 2 inches each! Ekonomi... gosh! That is the worst subject ever!!!! huh... guess what??? Each time there is Ekonomi lessons, I am sleepy... Hahahaha... and I will yawn... and yawn.... and yawn... and yawn until I feel tired! Hahahahahaha... Last but not least, BM... so far, BM I have not understand at all... Hey, STPM BM is not like UPSR or PMR or SPM okay!!!! It is harder than ever! It is the history of Bahasa Melayu okay! Hah.. 4 flats??? I have to put tonnes of efforts!!!!!

Okay.. love?? I put aside for a while... I wanna think about my STUDY first... :-D

WTF???

Gosh...my life is getting miserable!!!!!!

HOMEWORKS, NOTES, LOVE, HATE, WORRIED, DISSAPOINTED, SAD, SICK...

Huhuhu...

Terasa lama sudah ndak marah orang....

Marah orang di Myspace....

Marah orang di Friendster...

Uh...belum puas...

Marah sama siapa lagi???

Entah la....

CLUELESS, SPEECHLESS

Uhhu~

DEMAM...

B, I miss you! I need you!!!!!

Countdown 4 more days...

:-(

First Day Of Orentation

Okay...let start the conversation! Penat siot... Gilak... mendera dorang sama lower six!!! Uwek... tangan aku ada brust sikit... Lutut aku ada calar-calar... :-(

Sayang tiada gambar. Kalau ada, mesti ketawa-ketawa... Yalah... muka kena tepung! Telur la... itu la...Ini la.. Macam-macamlah... Huh~~~

Aku perasan kulit aku lebih gelap... Huhu... Tadi berjemur di matahari yang terik di padang! Aduih..shitnya la... Susah payah aku mau putih balik, sudah jadi hitam! Gilak eh~~~

Apa lagi ya?? Macam-macamlah... Penat.. esok second and the last day of orentation! After that, STUDY!!!! Huhuhuhuhu..............

Oh iya.. first time pegang CACING, LIPAS and segala macam!!! Yurk~~~

Dizzy~

Dizzy with school problems...

I missed a lot of chapters since I entered the school late....

Pengajian Am - 3 CHAPTERS!!!!

Gosh... homeworks are too many like HELL!

And my new school is soooooo strict...

I never been shouted by teacher... Never in my life...

But yesterday.... my NEW DISCIPLINE teacher shouted at me like I don't have any feeling....

Embarrassed... ;-(

I cried when I reached home... Uwek~~~

This afternoon, I entered teachers' room to see my GURU KELAS YANG BAIK HATI LAGI CHOMEL....

I saw soooo many rotan2 everywhere!!!

Gulpp... :-S It took my breathe away....

Yalah... I entered boys' school kan...

Boys are like hell what~

Always distrub me when I want to go to my classroom! F*ck!

I spent so many money on my fees, books and sort...

How I'm gonna buy new contact lens??? :-(

Then I have some issues with Dayat...

I know he loves me so much...

But I'm the one is too damn maniac egoo!!!

GOSH...

THIS THURSDAY AND FRIDAY HAVE ORENTATION!!!

SENIORS WILL PUNISH AND TAKE REVENGE ON US LIKE DONKEY!!!

Ish~

BENCINYA AKU...

APA KENA DENGAN AKU NIE??????

GILA SUDAH???

SOT SUDAH???

EEEEE~~~~~`

DANIE

DANIE????
Apa tue???
Dayat balik-balik tanya aku kalau aku kenal DANIE...
mau jugak aku marah dia...
Akhirnya... jawapannya buat aku tersenyum lebar....

DAYAT + WANIE = DANIE

Thanks b~

Imsomnia...

Aku ni dapat imsomnia ka? Dalam beberapa hari ni, aku langsung ndak boleh tidur. :-( Aku sangatlah penat tapi entahlah... fikirkan aku terus berpusing-pusing memikirkan entah apa-apa.

Memikirkan pasal form 6 yang entah apa-apa. Kalau ikut prosuder, tunggu lepas cuti sekolah baru tau diterima rayuan tu atau ditolak. Ini ndak... aku tengok budak-budak cina tu terus lesap and masuk sekolah baru... Ee...

Pastu memikirkan pasal Bubu... Dia baru habis operate. Kesian... dia ada upload pix dia di MSnya... urm...sudahlah dia rasa sakit, aku ada couple baru.. Aku pun ndak tau macamana mau cakap dengan dia... Aku tekan number dia tapi aku ndak berani call atau SMS. Bukan apa... aku ndak tau mau cakap apa dengan dia... Mau minta maaf? Aku rasa aku ndak layak... :-(

First aku terima B... aku terima dia sebab aku mau sakitkan hati Bubu. Lagipun, time tu aku tengah boring. So, aku terima dia saja... Ala... Bubukan ada ex dia balik... Huh... Aku terima B... aku pun cakap dengan B... aku cuba sayang dia... Yupz, and now I really, really, really love him. Tapi... setiap hari, aku mesti ingat Bubu... Dalam hati aku cakap.... 'macamana kalau aku dengan bubu ar?'

Memang aku akui... Bubu tu ada ciri-ciri lelaki yang aku suka... Dia lebih tua dari aku, dia sayang aku, dia manja, he is such a sweet person! And aku suka nyanyikan aku lagu..Tapi aku kena akui juga... B pun ada kelebihannya walaupun dia lebih muda dari aku and dia agak kasar bila bercakap... Haritu aku merajuk, dia cakap aku sudah BESAR mau merajuk. Apalagi, bertambah-tambah merajuk aku! Aku penah MMMUUAAAHHH dia.. dia boleh cakap kiss lututnya! Adeyh...apa-apa pun, B sekarang bertambah okay...

I'm stuck actually... What should I do???

GET A GOOD SLEEP!!!!